I've heard someone say that the longer you stay away, the harder it is to come back and that's never been more real to me than it is at the moment.
I haven't blogged in over a month and, let's be real, in the months before my uploads were inconsistent at best. I'm not here to give y'all another lame I've been busy excuse because there's only so many times that they'll work before you just seem like you're taking the piss.
If you've been a long time Born to Buy reader (thank you, by the way), you'll probably remember that last year I was very unwell. From about June - September my uploads were erratic and that's honestly because I was sick. Very sick.
Before that, I prided myself on being a blogger that rain, hail or shine uploaded daily and I really loved the content I was putting out. I would plan my posts, spend all Saturday taking the photos I needed and all of Sunday writing them. Not only that, I'd go to bed at about 12.30am every night/morning and then be up at 5.30am to get ready for work. When I was sick, however, uploading was the last thing from my mind. I wanted to do it, of course, but I wasn't playing with make up and I wasn't feeling up to writing.
During that time, as well as during my recovery, I realised the value of sleep. I realised that spending time with family and/or friends is how I wanted to be spending my weekends. I loved blogging and, my goodness, I still do, however I realised that I had let it define me and take over my life in a way that I didn't like.
Even when I got better (so pretty much for the whole of this year), I was still trying to upload daily. When I couldn't, or when life got in the way, I'd stop uploading mid-week and tell myself I'd try again the following week. This has gone on for the past few months until I just told myself I knew I wouldn't be uploading daily so there was no point at trying at all.
That's crazy and I need to finding a balance.
Today I'm here to say that I am finally back. I won't be uploading daily, as you may have guessed, but I think that uploading every second day is achievable. If it's not, I'll revisit it. I have missed being a part of this community so much and I absolutely cannot wait to share so much with you all.
Until then, tell me, how have you been? I've missed you.